ethanayo kaalam thalli nenjorum pani thuli

How do I prevent myself from replying when I get a provocative mail in the groups? Like the one which I got today...
If it had been two/three months ago, I would have "replied" in my "style".... quoting the facts...
But then I screwed up everything.... so much ...
Last year i was asked what will I do when someone in the college speaks against "the one", or the "culture" or dark skin... I said that I wouldn't reply back... Time to honour that resolution..
Looking back the lines that come to my mind is

"nindru parka neram indri,
sendru kondre irunthene,
nirka vaithai , pesa vaithai,
Nenjorum panithuli"

The rain is over; and the monsoon is yet to begin ( a beautiful contradiction in my life)

Let the game begin

If you close your eyes, then the world is dark..
If you block your path, then you can never travel....

The above two lines are lyrics from a Tamil song... I realise that the only person who can prevent me from getting this job is myself... Have 10 days to prove myself and I know that I m worth it....
Well, I decided to go for it.... After a long time, I m on a hunting mission......
Life is soooooo beautiful.... Isn't it?

hugs from me....

when a friend of mine who is settled in Singapore said this ( "hugs from me"), I got pissed off... If there is one thing that can turn me off completely, Hugs will top the list.
"Hugs from me" -- its so girlish.... I never need hugs... and my friends just stand by me when I need them... Please hug pussy boys..... I just need time from my friends when I am down.
He remarked casually and still I blasted him :D. Well,If he had really meant it, I would have thrashed him to death.

P.s. Leo found this blog... Bas*ard....:)

No to burgers...

Finally I was able to do that.. for the past two weeks, the only dinner i have been getting is the sick Veg burger from MACD near VT.
Yesterday I was literally forced to go to Matunga where I had a nice Tam dinner at Mani's. My taste buds came back to life after I hogged sambhar and Rasam. Tam Name boards, Hawkers speaking in Tam, and some turn-on factors(like the one I mentioned in previous post) :D brought some cheers to my otherwise insipid life at Mumbai.
Have two more weeks to go before I get back to L.I.F.E ....

rooooccccckkkkk

I can feel that floyd, metallica and iron maiden have finally started conquering me......
esp "shine on you crazy diamond".....
ofcourse "Nothing else matters" has become a cult song .......

and for a horror, I found out that I have started liking the pubs...
after going to hostel from a pub, I listened to folk song and I liked it... now my genre ranges from carnatic, folk, psychedelic , hard rock, pop, filmy, ghazal( gulam ali).......

song which Im hearing right now: " ethanayo kalam thalli nenjorum pani thuli" from vetayadu vilayudu.........

one more..

added in collection of my friends... will nick him as monsieur in this blog....
I called monsieur for an "Elaneer".. what was supposed to be a six minute meeting of saying "Hi" took 6 hours..
went to a bakery.... walked back .. came to CCD.... took a cab and went to a restaurant... walked to gateway of india ... then went to a pub......
Monsieur -- arguably the most Fuc*ing intelligent guy in the batch... we call him a Consult material...
and this is one friendship where i didn't take the first step.. :D....
more about him later...
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missing something... the viboodhi in the forehead of gals..... a beautiful turn on factor for me.....
was telling monsieur about how to spot a gal from our state... just need to look for "manjal kaiyru" or "viboodhi".... ofcourse most of them do not wear these days.. but then if they do wear, you can be sure they are from our state....
things are falling into place......


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tale of two love stories

I: " I missed u in the meet"
Mom: " But I didn't miss it. Anyway he was not there"

Mom, you should have told this straight at my face and then you should have seen the joy in my face.
I am extremely happy that you both care and love each other inspite of the fact that it might not work out.
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I: " Me cant wait for the kerala trip.. what are you doing now?"
He: " thinking how I can take revenge on my ex-girl friend."
I: " what? just get out of it if you dont like her... and dont be crazy"

I am extremely frustrated about this guy.

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I was listening to "Unnal Mudiyum Thambi" and the pain hit me when I listened to the line " Ethayum mudikum ithayam unnil kanden" ( I saw a heart which can do/take anything ) which Annadurai said 50 years ago.
The pain -that I cried ... How did it happen to me? I am extremely angry at myself that I cried....
Fu*k you "Black is beautiful".... and how do i come out of this guilt that i cried? ha..... I don't know whether I need to bleed thousand people to make me get rid of this guilt... I want to smell the blood.... blood of thousand people whom I do not like.....

cry baby cry....

May 23rd.. (today)
Time : 6.30 pm
Year: 2003
Place: Coimbatore... "Black is beautiful" gets his B.E degree in the convocation.

I wanted to cry on that day with the scores of them crying around.. I didn't :D. Somehow I felt I have to move on and never met the clan that day.

Incidents when I cried( from 1999)

Sept 1999: Cried when the class lost a football match in the finals(that became one of the epic moments) we lost the match but went on to rule the college along with the "cousins"(read "mech"):) .

Jan/Feb 2000: Cried when the bas*ard in Scotland scolded me.(Guess that was the last time we fought big time... why don't we fight these days ? :D)

Jan/feb 2002: Cried when we had a meeting with day-scholars to resolve the placement issue. It was a passionate fight. The hatred for day-scholars still lingers on :D

April 28th 2003: The clan farewell. Boy ,I cried for 5 minutes.. Infact i didnt cry. I wailed....

Nov 17th 2006: CM's death. Cried for a minute. Thats it.

April 17th 2007: cried due to someone's Insecurity..... cried for a minute.

April 28th 2007(date coinciding with farewell'03): Cried for hurting someone.. again for a minute..

The last two incidents are a joke right now.... why did I ? :).. I can never answer this question.... May be I am pluto's child.... and I really cannot believe that I cried.... May be I was so deep into it... (the other incidents were more close to my heart: Clan, placements, class spirit, Scotland bastard).. May be I gave as much importance to it like other incidents... whatever... past is past. But i didn't like it(see the picture in side bar and read the lines below the picture)

Looking forward to cry again :D... but I guess it will never happen again unless someone close dies...

I wish

i feel like him(always in life).... with raw energy ... and I do for the past one week...
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I bleed people who do not know anything but mock at my explanation, to death.
I do not want people to open their mouths unless they are pretty sure that they know things..and most often they do not know and yet open their mouth.
I am good at my work/career and I don't entertain any advice unless I specifically ask for it. of course I have my set of people to whom I would go and ask for advice... So please save yourself from the trouble....
(Hint: Look at my body language if you are seeing me and look for silence in case you are speaking with me over the phone.. my silence means "will u stop this chuth** advice ?")
(p.s. Happened due to someone in workplace)
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I made an exception. I am happy that I made an exception. But then....(extrapolation)
I played the Sicilian defence instead of the traditional Ruy Lopez opening. My queen side castle was rocked and my king was exposed. Long time since I played chess... anyone game for it ?
(p.s. He he long time since I wrote some rubbish about my "love")
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brothers....

" Nimmu, Im extremely glad that you got your US visa.... and the way you shared me the news that you got your visa filled my heart with joy; I know that I am someone special and important in your life. I just hope that you would follow your brother's foot steps.....
you would read a lot.
you would make out with girls in Tennessee(as your brother does in california :D).
you would get a job which you deserve and desire.
you would continue to play our "supply" :D
you would steal the show ,the way your brother does in his company.
you would show me all those "pics" of Halloween days :D
and wherever life takes us, I know that we are just a call away from each other.... "

long time since I lost

Pluto's special child can never fail in anything in life.. It looks like my June 3rd exam might be canceled on account of legal issues...
It has been a long time since I failed in any exam(8th standard quarterly exam.. subject-art.. i was never good in drawing and painting) . I hope I can continue to say this even after June 3rd........
I hate to lose (in) anything esp (in) things where I don't deserve to lose. Period.

food and a scorpion

In this world where everyone tries to score brownie points in any relationship, I still have good friends.

He: " Lets go to bade mia"
I: " what abt veggie like me"
He: " Lets go to bombay blues then"
I: " Lets go to bade mia"
He: " you might not like bade mia"
I: " Still its ok.."
He: " no .. lets go to bombay blues"
I: " we are going to bade mia"

Does the food matter :D ? Every day he saves a dairy milk for me and gives to me in the weekend. Will miss u dude from this weekend.... These are the darkest days of my life and I am happy that you are there to show the light at the end of the tunnel.....

alumni meet

Met this guy who was my super senior and from IIT KGP. He was the tallest one around and was working in my dream company.
I started speaking with him generally.

He: " I am a totally arbit person"
I checked my mouth. No .. I didnt utter this dialouge.

He: " I dont know what I want in life"
I checked it again. No... I didnt utter this as well.

He: " I cant stand these lengthy purposeless mails"
I checked it again. No .... It was not me...

I: " who are those two gals? and are they still single ?"
He: " Then why am I still single ? " and smiles at me....

I: " Man, you should blog ".....

why?

I am ready to get hurt... why?
I am selfless.... why?
I am an allowing an exception... why?
I still believe in it... why?
I still have two posts in my drafts and couldn't publish it... why?
I still care for someone's feelings when the vice versa is not there... why?
I am a chut***a idiot... why?

diplomacy

is the nicest way to do the nastiest thing - for others.
is the nastiest way to do a nastiest thing - for me.

It just turns me off. why cant people tell straight at the face ?. But the worst part - people believe "Stable" people who are supposed to maintain the cool when the situation demands and think that they are real men.
Believe me.. They aren't. They can't stand real pressure. Its not what you "show" to the outer world that is important but what you "are" which is important.
I know the supposedly "stable" men who cracked during summers interview process and who discouraged me not to go for something which I wanted to go for.

passion + commitment >>>>> "stable" pussy cats.
but I do agree that there are few cool people who are passionate and committed. But then thats a very rare combination(have seen very few in senior batch and very few in junior batch).
Ha.. "stable" guys, wait for me.. Once I compete with you people in the industry, lets see who eats whom.

i hate

I hate myself ............
I hate many more things ... But then I do not want to do anything intentionally in this blog.

Team

After a long time I was checking Zerin's blog. I do not know this guy personally. But then when I was checking out his blog, I jumped to his consultancy site and Viola :) I should say that I was inspired.
I really long to get a team like the one which he has. One CA, one Ops guy, One Marketing guy, One finance guy....
In just one more year, I would be sent out of the college with a MBA degree in hand. It can fetch me a job with a nice pay package and a boring work. Two years down the line, I would get married. Five years down the line, I will have a kid + a big tummy + mid life crisis.
Have to think and think fast.

Missing these -2

Two years since I visited kodaikanal...



I want to get married !!! (A couple at kodaikanal)



no way... I don't want to get married ..(once upon a time, it was must for every guy .....:D to tame the bulls to get married- Picture from alanganallur jallikattu).

smell some blood...

like a killer whale. I just sensed an opportunity in the organisation when I had a word with my "super" senior.
Will I get it ?. Time to go for the kill; Time to invoke my killer instincts; Most probably I would be too young to hunt for the prey; But then I would try;I hate losing;More than that I hate giving up without even trying;

I love this place. I have amazing team mates and an amazing guide. They would be happy in having me there and I'm sure about it. Now let me start making my moves.

Trip to alibagh

was a Disaster :D...
Because
->We didn't reach alibagh.
->I puked after the to and fro boat journey.
-> and I was the only guy who puked. Everyone else including the children, women, men were fine and enjoyed the boat trip :). (Guess the egg curry which I had for my lunch did the trick)
->we wasted 260 bucks

But then the sight of beautiful south bombay in lights, the port, the cruise liner which crossed us, the sun set ..... it was worth it.

if anyone asks me whether I have seen gateway of India, this will be my reply.."I have infact puked in gateway of India" :D..ouva waaa...

my life defined by tamil songs

my friends: "kuiliuku" from friends
my love: "nenjodu kalandhidu" from kadhal konden (only the first stanza).
my parents: "karpoora bommai" from keladi kanmani.
my career: "arjunur villu" from Ghilli
my kids: "poove poochudava" from poove poodchudava

Life at Metro

An old man walks towards nafisa in the movie.
I ask the Bihari IITian sitting next to me.

I: " who is this old man"
He stares at me.."don't you know him ?"
I: "you know that I don't watch Hindi movies".
He: "He is dharamendra" and smiles at me

I: "who is Irfan"
He: "Haven't you seen any of his movies."
I: " nope"
He shows me Irfan..

This continued for Kangana rawat as well. The only people I knew in the movie - Shilpa shetty and konkana sen(I lech this gal).

I have to learn Hindi and learn it very fast. I'm missing too many steamy scenes and jokes :D. Without audio effect, visuals sometimes fail to turn you on :D.

When the whole theater was watching the scene in which a guy was starting to make out with shilpa shetty in a tensed manner, I was chuckling for a sick BGM.

Met few of my college seniors and batch mates in the movie and had a quite evening with them...

Missing this

Girl ! wait ..if ur mom doesnt come, I will join u in the besant nagar Beach...



I seriously do not why I like this photo... may be the color of a Tam gal ? or may be the rich tone in the photo ? or may be the dreams in her eyes ?



I miss them.. the huge temples.. though not a believer, i love them...


A picture of beach in East Coast Road ...
One more month..... just one more month... will be there... Life beckons...

Nil magnum nisi bonum

Nothing is great unless it is good.
In love, the statement definitely holds good.
I will remember this lesson for years to come.
But as Arun said, its not my problem if people cannot appreciate it.

mere nazar me....

I step out of the office...
A handicapped guy trying to cross the road...
I walk..
A child working in a hotel...
I walk..
An adolescent orphan addicted to some drug..
I walk..
A group of kids who sleep in the platform..
I walk..
A hawker who is trying to make some money..but no one is there to buy ..
I walk..
A young gal with lipstick in VT subway..
I cross..
She tells me " Dho so rupya"...
I run.......

This is other side of Mumbai for you , my people..... Havent seen so much poverty in my life .. even in rural bihar or a metro like chennai.....

slam..dunk

whenever I see someone playing basketball, i feel jealous.. Such a graceful game...
But then I go to an extreme when I see this...
A fat guy( should be 5 feet 6 inches weighing around 80+kgs) playing with three svelte girls.. the moves he make -- Hmmm lucky bast***.

No... what sort of cruel world is this :((.......
I dont have anyone else to be blamed for this fiasco. I didnt learn basketball and I ll pay for this :D

p.s.: Was thinking about My beautiful chennai today.... One more month, I ll find happiness again... in those jasmine flowers and thavani angels... In ECR, besant nagar beach, In the company of arul; in ponnusamy meals; in my black indica....

birthday week...

Do you remember last year's post which I wrote on your birthday ?..

"if two months - two years acquaintances are rock solid friends.. then what will they call us :D ? "

Words lose their meaning when it comes to our friendship...

Happy birthday week -- Scotland Highlander :D (couldn't wait for may 16th)

This year the song which I dedicate to you is....

"Metallica: Nothing else matters... "

democracy

sonia gandhi - a roman catholic
Abdul kalam - a muslim
Manmohan - A sikh

In contrast US hasn't elected a president other than a male,white Christian.

Read the above from tharoor's column. If I write a book on India, I would just reproduce whatever shashi tharoor has written...

spider man3

- sucks.. and sucks big time.
- preaches Christian moral values like a typical B grade Hollywood movie.

except for one line in the movie
" even a spider man needs someone at some point of time" or some similar dialouge which the heroine utters..

nice guys get nice gals

I : " why did it happen to me"
he : " thats the same question which i asked you three years ago"

I : " why not me"
he : " thats the same question which i asked you three years ago"

I : " what happens now"
he : " nice guys get nice gals.. just hope..."

I found my feet. If it has to happen, it will happen.....