To the "guy" and the "gal" :P

Gal...

I still remember telling you twenty years ago that I will marry a gal like you...
I still remember you teaching me everything from sanitary napkins to menstrual cycle.... (Thank god, I never had to learn them from a half baked adolescent :P)
I still remember you making a huge drama for my "love" marriage and then finally smoking peace pipe by telling me the legendary sentence:
" you can marry any donkey you want... provided you earn more than the donkey.." :D
In one stroke you proved women are drama queen..... :)
Thanks for giving the emotional side of yours to me....

my "gal" will be better than "you" :P ...

Guy:

I still remember you teaching me how dy/dx is different from Delta(X)/Delta (Y).
Honesty;integrity;sincerity - I never read them in dictionary for I learnt them from you..
You make me feel jealous about the way you love the "gal"...

I swear I ll love my "gal" more than you love your "gal"..

Dad and Mom, many more happy returns of the day... hope you guys put atleast a fifty partnership...

moments of madness

I miss you... For twenty three years you were there with me; to warn me; to cheer me up; as my conscience keeper...
but with shallowness around, I need you once again..... to make me believe in true friendships.... To hear your voice and your peculiar way of telling that "everything is an illusion"...
Can't you see what I need right now? I pity you..
For you need to find the questions that are deep in my mind...
you need to answer them as well...

Sunshine gal..

Should I call her today ? I am so agitated today that i had to break the oath again to blog this post..
what prevents me from giving her a call ?
1) a technical problem in my mobile...
2) my ego.... I had resolved not to send her on a guilt trip(as she had mentioned few months back). I never called her up and only returned her calls..
she gave me a palette of emotions in my life... made me strong; made me realise what an egoistic guy I am; made me feel the depth of love I have for her...
Though I had moments of weakness in these few months, I have been "restrained" (according to my own standards and considering what I have been going through in the past four months) in my communication with her....
This post is a toast to my ego and the way I love the sunshine gal....

p.s. I haven't broken my promise which I gave to you (munich guy)...These things are in back ground for I have become dead serious in my acads :)

friendship..

This is a damn important post that i have break my addiction oath to post this...

I sent a mail...
I do not know why I sent it...
I do not whether I was right in doing it...
I do not even know the implications of sending the mail...
Its just that I flushed my mind in that mail...
In the past four years, I can't remember sending anything to anybody which was as blunt as this mail.....

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After four years, I hope to read this post and I am not sure whether I ll laugh or cry for the action I did...

Amen..

addiction...

was speaking with a junior of mine..
an IITian..
He blogs..
and he has a good blog too...
He said blogging is an addiction..
and I hate getting addicted to something in life..
and I want to see whether I can stop blogging for a month..
I stop now...

Dream trip..

My dream trip has been finalised.
Exploring India in Train,bus,Lorry,Plane,Bullock cart (feel free to add whatever you want).

Guess who will be my partner in this trip which is scheduled in March? AMP ..

The guy whom I would have married if I were a gal( even He says YES to that proposal:P)

I can't wait for March... and I m looking forward to it more than my Europe trip( other than sandeep's place, I am not too excited to see lifeless buildings with "cultured" people in them... I would rather prefer "colorful" and "vibrant" India...)

I am game, AMP...

zinc

Zinc celebrates his birthday on Aug 11th.
I called him up today and wished him..

The conversation:

I: " so how many people are reporting to you?"
He: " Some 22"
I: " What the fuck ? you are a head of strategic business unit and still only 22"
He: "No machan.. 22 engineers report to me; 66 Bsc grads and some 100 contract labours"
I: " kewl... so have you started going for recruitment ?"
He: " No."
I: " why ? Is it still handled by higher ups ?"
He: " No.. I send my subordinates ... to NITs.."

At the age of 40, I see you as a CEO....
One guy who can show the listless MBAs that an engineer can do a better job provided he is a "man who can take decisions"...

Miles to go before you sleep..

Iniya pirantha naal vazthukal machi... ( Happy Bday...)

similarities

same place
same month
same club
same course

why god why ?

but then its not the same "Black is beautiful " :D
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Whenever I cross the place from where I used to call her, I want to freeze that moment in my life.. as if nothing had changed. I remember those anxious moments of waiting for her to pick the phone and speak to me....

Black is certainly beautiful........

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This is what I want to write to her

Dear Sunshine girl,

Bon voyage....

truly,
Black.

But I guess I will never write that for I have a king sized EGO

Free market

I was a "free-market takes care of all" before coming here. Now after reading developmental economics, I believe that neo-classical approach doesn't make any sense...
Neo-classical approach says that Humans are essentially selfish and hence supply-demand are essential way of getting things done....
I don't have any problems in saying that Humans are essentially selfish and this is precisely why I believe government intervention is needed..
Because if government doesn't intervene, the siblings and progeny of Howard Roarks of the world may rule corporations inspite of being inefficient ( I can quote many examples of incompetent CEOs who reached that position by the virtue of their background...)
I don't want my children to succeed me because they are my children..
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I am an idiot.. but only for one more month.. when I leave this place to the land of Merci, I guess I would buried my "past"... its an albatross around my neck..
why am I not selfish ? I am happy that my ego is intact... but still I can sense my weakness.... Hmm....
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perfection is not perfect..

why KJ is not the greatest singer ? Because he is a perfect guy.
He is like australian cricket team. He is consistent. He is dominating. He can't make mistakes.
But Is music about perfection and nothing else ? what about "life" in song like "Rasathi onna" sung by Jayachandran? what about the pathos aroused by voice of Ilayaraja? There are few songs which KJ can never touch because it can spoil the life in those songs...
Philosophically, making mistakes leads to new innovations and evolutions...

P.s.:
1) Does this post make any sense?
2) what am I ? Am I perfectionist ?
3) whatever be the case I don't want a perfect girl...