what i want to say...

things are rosy at my end..
all the subjects are interesting...
I love this place..
I am busy thinking about my career...
I love music..
I read books..
I live my life..
I can stay away from this blog...
I dont think about her..

What I dont say.....

I am depressed..
The subjects suck.. The proffs suck more..
I hate this place...
I think about my career.. get jitters and end of the day, I dont do anything about it...
I stopped liking music...
I dont read these days...
I coudnt stay away from cribbing and this blog..
I do think about her :(....

p.s: Right now what I need is a guide who can help me out in my career and personal life....
Missing IIT days,the wonderful proffs we had, my guide :((..
I need a job.. I want to move out of this place and start earning.. I am sure I m not getting any value addition right now....

racing...

I have gone mad....
I have to squeeze my sleeping hours from today... Each and Every minute counts....


P.s: Still couldn't find any problem in sales and distribution :((

patterns

I see only patterns in my life.. even in mathematics.. for some it is a science.. but for me Maths is an art.. the art of intuition.
Four years ago I was in similar state of mind and things are beginning to shape up in the same way.
Went to meet the proff regarding my dissert and he said in plain english words.." prepare an abstract and send it to me in seven days.. Lets then discuss about the milestones"..
Now If Someone asks me to prepare an abstract in computer science, I will take seven days .. Here I am supposed to prepare an abstract in sales and distribution about which I do not know anything... But then this is what the post is all about.. the patterns...... I will crib that I have finance exams in next week; I will crib that I do not know anything in sales and distribution; I will crib that how am i supposed to search for a problem in it without knowing anything in it..... Finally I will go ahead and do all of the above..... because I know that its coming..... the urge to taste my sweat,flesh and blood and come up with a dissert ....

p.s. After a long time I feel that I have written a positive post... because I feel it.. I feel it when I jog; and I dont feel anything else... its the only thing in my mind right now.... the PSYCHO is BACK....

as time flies by...

Was jolted by the pain ..pain of a relationship.... pain that I cried... came back and played in my mind....
Best part: I am taking time to recover...proves that I am not shallow..
Worst part: I am taking time to recover...proves that I am not tough..
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I finally can feel, see, hear the voices in my head... The fear of failure is back... I m shifting my Gears... Two more months; seven subjects; seven projects; seven presentations; one dissertation; It looks daunting but there is only one thing that I can do... "I can't afford to waste my time"... thats it.... I need a FMCG. I have decided that I m going to sell soaps to rural women in Jharkhand.
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Was formally admitted to "kairali" in the college. :D.. After all how many people can enjoy a padmarajan movie ?
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The only problem is that I want to win in everything.... Its has been a long time since I proved myself that I am good...
After a long time someone asked my grade point and the usual incident happened. I want people to take me seriously....
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Song of the moment: " Loosu Penne" From vallavan... Tam/Mallu Readers please hear the song...

i tried so hard...

I was told yesterday by my guide and her boss... that
i was not at my best...
i was not prepared...
I didnt argue the way I argue with them passionately.
Reasons -- fever, cold, cough;

Today everything went the way I wanted it to go...
It was power packed... I showed the passion... I showed the raw energy...... and they acknowledged it.....
I tried so hard and got so far....In the end it does matter(unlike what Linkin park says)....
I guess I am on the right track to book a place in the Organisation...
just one more round to go.....
Amen.....
p.s: Song which I heard before presenting: " Nothing else matters"....Metallica. Just rocks....

Glutton

Place: Cafe Madras, Matunga.

1 Bisebela bath
1 Mysore Masala dosa
1 Andhra pesarat Dosa
1 Mysore sada Dosa
and Some pieces in set dosa....

Now we didnt go as a team; The above list was just my dinner menu;
The campaign - Say "No to Burgers" :D

Mumbai from the 12th floor of an apartment looks sexy.. Planes which are about to land at andheri, high rise buildings at Bandra, King's circle, Sion are a treat to eyes especially during the monsoon..
I love this place and I hate this place..
I love finance and I hate finance..
I love ...and I hate ..hmm chuck it ..couldn't complete it :D

I wish

i feel like him(always in life).... with raw energy ... and I do for the past one week...
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I bleed people who do not know anything but mock at my explanation, to death.
I do not want people to open their mouths unless they are pretty sure that they know things..and most often they do not know and yet open their mouth.
I am good at my work/career and I don't entertain any advice unless I specifically ask for it. of course I have my set of people to whom I would go and ask for advice... So please save yourself from the trouble....
(Hint: Look at my body language if you are seeing me and look for silence in case you are speaking with me over the phone.. my silence means "will u stop this chuth** advice ?")
(p.s. Happened due to someone in workplace)
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I made an exception. I am happy that I made an exception. But then....(extrapolation)
I played the Sicilian defence instead of the traditional Ruy Lopez opening. My queen side castle was rocked and my king was exposed. Long time since I played chess... anyone game for it ?
(p.s. He he long time since I wrote some rubbish about my "love")
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Team

After a long time I was checking Zerin's blog. I do not know this guy personally. But then when I was checking out his blog, I jumped to his consultancy site and Viola :) I should say that I was inspired.
I really long to get a team like the one which he has. One CA, one Ops guy, One Marketing guy, One finance guy....
In just one more year, I would be sent out of the college with a MBA degree in hand. It can fetch me a job with a nice pay package and a boring work. Two years down the line, I would get married. Five years down the line, I will have a kid + a big tummy + mid life crisis.
Have to think and think fast.

smell some blood...

like a killer whale. I just sensed an opportunity in the organisation when I had a word with my "super" senior.
Will I get it ?. Time to go for the kill; Time to invoke my killer instincts; Most probably I would be too young to hunt for the prey; But then I would try;I hate losing;More than that I hate giving up without even trying;

I love this place. I have amazing team mates and an amazing guide. They would be happy in having me there and I'm sure about it. Now let me start making my moves.